Yes... for those who were bored enough to stumble on my page, this is a new post. I miss writing in this blog a LOT, and so many times I wanted to post an entry, but things were happening that I doubted I was ready to share. Granted I still somewhat feel that way - but then it occurred to me that I probably would years later... so what difference would it make? lol
Just when I thought the surprises were over...
I guess there is no way to sugarcoat this, so I'll just blurt it out thoughtlessly - I lost my job. I can give all sorts of excuses and reasons and justifications for this, but the truth remains I am currently unemployed - and more confused than ever! To make matters more complicated, I took a vacation! Hence why some of you may have spotted me in Trinidad last month. Truth be told, although I can understand why most people would view doing such as an unwise move, I do not regret going back home. In fact, now I am seriously considering going back for good. However, I am scared spineless. Tons of questions flood my mind whenever I think about doing that. Should I go back, would I be doing it for the right reasons? How am I going to go about it? Should I look for a job there - while still here? What am I going to do with my stuff?? And here's the kicker - is this God talking? Or did I simply bring this upon myself as some sort of manifestation of my dissatisfaction with my life here in Florida? "For whom the Lord loves, He corrects," says the Good Book. Am I being rash for allowing my mind to venture that far, or is this the chance I have been waiting for?
The bottom line is that if I want to make this move, I want to do it right. I want to do it in such a way that I cause no-one any burden or shame (its bad enough I did that already by losing my job). So, instead of making it a one-time solution (because life is hard and unfair no matter where you go), going home is my ultimate goal. The question is when to make my move. I know Dave will have a prompt answer for that (lol). All I know is that so-called right time cannot come too soon...
