Sanity, may I re-introduce myself...

Dear Sanity,
I'm probably the last person you want to hear this from, but I need you back! I know I was wrong. I know that I have shunned your forewarnings and advice. You told me over and over again not to make those decisions. But I did not listen to you. I ignored your wisdom and did what I wanted anyway. You beat my head in with your rod of guilty conscience... and then you left. You removed yourself in the wake of my foolishness, because there was no room for you and my bad decisions. Now, you are gone, and I truly and sorely miss you. But now, I feel as though I have paid my penance. I lost a child. My body is totally screwed up. I keep finding out who my ex-fiance truly is - and each discovery hurts me to the core. Have I suffered enough now?! How much longer must I carry on like this? I know I cannot simply ask you to come back into my life... because you'll be afraid that I'll take you for granted. And Sanity, you have every right to think so. But please, do not take my hard-headedness for lack of love. I truly treasure you. If I have to see a million doctors and take the extra time and effort to heal myself to make you come back to me, I will!
Sanity, you are a gift from God, and I am sorry to have taken you for granted. I, Foolish Human, thought you would stay with me no matter what... which meant (to me) that I could do whatever the hell I wanted, but expect you to stay with me. How selfish and self-righteous I was! Now, I am paying for my foolishness. Sanity, I beg you, I implore you to give me another chance. For both our sakes, I will be better!

Sincerely,
Once Foolish but Contrite Human...
Me

Last year's "Devil" is next year's Hope

Due to this year's infamous financial woes, I was forced to "stick" when it came to registering for mas. Now that ALL my favorite costumes have sold out, the website that I blasted as "the Devil" is now my only hope for a costume that I am willing to part with my hard-earned money for. Oh the irony!!

So, here goes my plea... If ANYONE knows someone who is selling either a Caged Canary (shoot for the stars, why not), Flight of the Ibis, African Lovebird, Green Honeycreeper... well damn near ANY Tribe costume (all backline please), PLEASE let me know! I will keep a lookout on the devil turned only hope... carnival junction.com

Thanks!!!

PS - Yes I am THAT desperate! lol